I Wonder What the Neighbours Know


I Wonder What the Neighbours Know

I wonder what the neighbours know

As I pound pavements--

Desperate,

Tethered,

Chasing the elusive tail of a Dream

That’s always bounding up, down--

Just paces away from the heartbeat in my chest.

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The friendly monster squats

And I reach inside

To find something to contain the mess.

Nothing.

The neighbours peek through blinds.

She can’t control it

Again.

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When I reach the long lights of home,

My pet thing

Will have emptied

Me

Only to demand

Choice morsels more.

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But I can’t stop loving it.

Feeding it.

Petting it.

It’s mine.

It’s part of me.

I could never part with it.

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I lament how

Adorable it is

How acceptable

To be tethered to a beast

Inside

Your territory.

Everyone’s got some animal they keep.

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May Jesus have mercy

On all things bright and beautiful

On all things dark and despicable

On all creatures great and small

The Lord God saves them all.

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And I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. I want to do what is right, but I can’t.

I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway.

But if I do what I don’t want to do, I am not really the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it.

I have discovered this principle of life—that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong.

I love God’s law with all my heart.

But there is another power within me that is at war with my mind. This power makes me a slave to the sin that is still within me.

Oh, what a miserable person I am! Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin and death?

Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord." -Romans 7:18-25a
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