I wonder what the neighbours know
As I pound pavements--
Chasing the elusive tail of a Dream
That’s always bounding up, down--
Just paces away from the heartbeat in my chest.
The friendly monster squats
And I reach inside
To find something to contain the mess.
The neighbours peek through blinds.
She can’t control it
When I reach the long lights of home,
My pet thing
Will have emptied
Only to demand
Choice morsels more.
But I can’t stop loving it.
It’s part of me.
I could never part with it.
I lament how
Adorable it is
To be tethered to a beast
Everyone’s got some animal they keep.
May Jesus have mercy
On all things bright and beautiful
On all things dark and despicable
On all creatures great and small
The Lord God saves them all.
And I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. I want to do what is right, but I can’t.
I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway.
But if I do what I don’t want to do, I am not really the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it.
I have discovered this principle of life—that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong.
I love God’s law with all my heart.
But there is another power within me that is at war with my mind. This power makes me a slave to the sin that is still within me.
Oh, what a miserable person I am! Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin and death?
Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord." -Romans 7:18-25a